Hey, readers.

Now, I’m not here to make excuses… but this is an excuse post.

I’ve been working non-stop the last few days and as of 24 hours from now, I’ll be reunited with one of my best friends for three weeks. Please forgive me (in advance) for slacking for the next few weeks!

“I thought I understood it…”

“I thought I understood it, that I could grasp it, but I didn’t, not really. Only the smudgeness of it; the pink-slippered, all-containered, semi-precious eagerness of it. I didn’t realize it would sometimes be more than whole, that the wholeness was a rather luxurious idea. Because it’s the halves that halve you in half. I didn’t know, don’t know, about the in-between bits; the gory bits of you, and the gory bits of me.”

Anna, Like Crazy (2011)

Top 5 women I’d very much like to be when I grow up

(Because who says we’re too old to say “when I grow up”?)

1. Kristen Stewart. Now if you know me, you know I love Kristen. I think she’s one of the most incredible people of my generation. She’s the definition of passion to me. She loves what she does. She cares so much about what she does. She only picks projects that she feels strongly about. I absolutely admire her passion. On top of that, she is honest, silly, beautiful, and brave. She is faced with so much negativity, but she carries herself the way she feels comfortable. That’s the way to live. I’d like to be like Kristen, in that I’m passionate about what I’m doing.

2. Kristen Wiig. An actress and a writer who is hilarious and, like Stewart, loves what she does. Of course, I miss her characters on SNL, but I know she’ll be back to host and more importantly, she’s following the paths that she wants to follow. I respect that. Whether that means off-screen or on-screen, I know she’s still got a solid sense of humor. If I could find a way to be even slightly as funny as Kristen Wiig, I’ll be a happy lady.

3. Grace Helbig. A youtube sensation (in my eyes) and one of the most funny people I look up to. She’s silly-funny. She likes to joke around, be sarcastic, and have fun. What more could a girl want in a career? Not to mention, she recently moved from NYC to LA, which is awesome. It’s so difficult to describe her humor, but I get it. It’s almost an… ‘I’m funny, even when I’m not trying to be and it totally works’ kind of funny. Trust me, go watch her discover One Direction or her recent Holiday Pick-up Lines video. Hilarious. See: Grace Helbig. Smart Girls w/ Amy Poehler Ep. 17

4. Sloane Crosley. I only discovered this beauty about two days ago when she appeared on Craig Ferguson. I liked her so much after that interview, I did a little research. Not only did she work at Random House Publishing as a Publicist, but she also taught at Columbia? Ok, Sloane, let’s do a few more awesome things to make you impossibly cool. Publish a few books? Sure, go for it! I haven’t picked up one of her books yet, but I have them on hold. From the snippets I’ve read, I can tell she’s an honest writer and the stories she has to tell are very funny. If I can get as far as she has by the time I’m 34, I will be living a dream (and hopefully appearing on Craig Ferguson to talk about my book too).

5. Sarah Dessen. Sarah has been my favorite romantic/teen author for years now. She writes these great characters with lovable characters who, of course, are meant to fall for each other. And as a hopeless romantic, I love that Sarah can so beautifully express love through actions and dialogue. My first novel will (hopefully) be a teen romance that makes Sarah proud. Oh and check out her twitter- her “mom” tweets are the best. Her daughter is a lucky girl!

The Way Back

Have you ever felt
like your chest was hollow,
like it was so empty that it weighed
enough to make up for what went missing?
.
Have you ever missed someone
so much that you were sure
they would emerge from the masses of people
that surrounded you in loneliness?
.
Have you ever loved a person
through dark days and bright nights,
down empty hallways
and bustling city streets?
.
Have you ever
loved a person so much
that you lost yourself
and can’t find your way back?
.

So have I.

Ink

When I drink at night

I taste your words on my tongue—

the letters scatter across

vacant space filling it with

curves, points, dots of reason

like a road map

etched into my palms.

I taste permanence as

the ache surfaces

the distance expands

the white noise rises.

When I drink at night

I feel your heavy gaze across the room

standing with your palms

facing the floorboards,

your dark blue veins pulse

in rhythm with my chest.

I clench my fists together

‘til the skin I feel is no longer mine

and the words you spoke are no longer yours.

One.

Oh, hello! If you’re reading this, I hope you’re in a good place right now. I also hope you keep coming back to this blog to read every once in a while. My name is Kim. I’m an aspiring writer. An aspiring writer who has somehow managed not to write since graduating this past April with a degree in (go ahead, guess): English Writing.

I met a woman last night while working at my internship that inspired me to get back into writing. She told me about how she wound up in accounting and that she loves her job (for the most part). So I decided: hey. If I’m going to take writing as a career seriously, I need to dedicate 5-10 minutes of every day writing.

You know the feeling of looking at the clock when you have to get something else done, but if it’s not on the :00 or the :30, you put it off until it is? And time slips away from you, repeating the process until you say “tomorrow”? I thought to myself “just start on 1/1/2013,” but realized it would be 2016 (if I were lucky) before I wrote again.

It’s December 5th, 2012 at 5:38pm. Grab a drink and a thing (any thing) to snuggle up with and watch me write. Poems, story snippets, lists, rants, reviews, truths, lies, and in-betweens.

It’s lovely to meet you. Come back soon!